Thank you all for your continued readership. Your kind interest in the things I post very often makes me feel like I am doing something right. Your even kinder expressions of praise for what I've written makes me feel that I have a chance to do something really helpful with my words one day in the near future. I like compliments: "sincere, high-brow, insightful, well written, gentle, hilarious, brilliant, humanitarian..." these are my favorite words you've sent me in comments and emails. Thank you.
I am so happy that you like my voice, even when I am saying things that might not be very important, clever, or beautiful. I am so grateful to feel a part of-- a part of your night, day, or your thoughts... thank you. The part of me that is truly an artist is fortified by my audience.
My voice is going silent... that is, I am leaving the auditorium.
This is my last public post. I have three reasons why.
1) It has been brought to my attention that though this blog will help me market my book when it comes out, it is not helping me become better-more-gainfully employed in the meantime.
2) I had been thinking about taking a vow of silence to complement my meditation practice. If I am silencing my physical voice, then it is sensible to silence my virtual voice also at this time. Specifically, this means:
- No vocal cords unless it is directly related to navigating work or caring for the dogs. ("Billy, stop poking Freddy with the protractor." "Mags, do you need to go bammy?"
- Phone calls can only be made during a predetermined hour (12-1pm, and anytime with my son).
- Text-ing, messaging, and email is okay.
3) Anonymity. To be one among others. Right now I need to embrace modesty no matter how I think sharing my daily story might help someone else. In one sentence, my help is: be grateful for everything at all times, even what you perceive as an obstacle, love up your neighbor, make no assumptions, be silly, be honest, and be gentle.
So. I want to thank you again before the lights go out on my Broadway. I said I would post every day this year, and I can't imagine the loss I might feel in not doing this any more. I will finish the year out privately, still journaling, keeping that daily commitment... and by March 2014, a compilation of the best posts will be available from Amazon or some other publisher, with bonus material from these last 58 days of 2013. I wanted to finish very badly, but it is time to stop.
Thank you. I love you all.
This past week has had me thinking of the two kinds of vows of silence. Public vow and the private vow. It is interesting how we both manage to be thinking the same ideas. It was great seeing you this past summer and sitting in the car in the rain drinking coffee. 20 minutes to catch up on all these years. I got tired of my blog a couple months ago. I am constantly reminded how everything changes and since I returned from NY my life has changed considerably. One day I may make a final posting on my blog to clue in for all 3 of my readers (lol) what exactly has been happening. I wish you well, as always. Stay brilliant Janet :)
ReplyDeleteit is with great sadness i read this final blog. your words have been my daily bread these past several months. though i do not travel the road of awakening into sobriety, i do travel the road of awakening into one's self and your humor and wit have helped me along my journey. like that cigarette after a big meal, or that slice of apple pie after thanksgiving dinner....whether your words were what i needed or not, they have become what i wanted and craved each day and it is with a heavy heart i find i must find my way along this path in your silent companionship henceforth. i wish you a wealth of all the blessings and best things life can bring to you on this and all days. i love you, my sweet soul sister.
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